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[Apr. 13th, 2006|10:09 am] |
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I'm picking up a lunch shift today (Thursday) for a girl I work with - so come visit me - and tip well! haha
P.S. ooooh so funny |
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| Today |
[Apr. 12th, 2006|10:27 pm] |
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| |  thoughtful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers - Echo | ] |
..The Calvin College teacher fair went REALLY well - all of the schools I talked to seemed really interested and they all took a lot of time to talk with me etc, it was a lot smaller than CMU's job fair, but definitely worth going to! After that, had dinner in Lansing at Clara's - it was really good and I had this drink called a "One Night Stand" it had Captain Morgan’s spiced rum, Chambord, Absolut Citron, Midori, crème de banana, orange and pineapple juice with a float of 151 rum...strongest drink i've ever had. I have a tummy ache from the salad and that I think..ah well.. ;) I am soo tired, I drove a lot today..hopefully I get to sub tomorrow, since I don't have to work until friday, but i need to go to bed early tonight anywayst - have a good night kids!
+You let me down+
+You dropped the ball+
+You fell on your face, most of all+
+And i don't want to mean anything to you+
+And I don't want to tempt you to be true+
+Its the same sad echo around here+ |
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| Don't come around here no more.. |
[Apr. 10th, 2006|10:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tom Petty - Don't Come Around Here No More | ] |
..So things are going..they're going - lets just say that. I'm really poor, and my car just recently needed a ton of repairs - like $400 worth or something..but I had T. try to fix it before I took it in, so I paid $53 for a part I might not have even needed on top of that. I'm so frustrated with myself lately, I let myself be used/taken for granted WAY too much, and then a bunch of other crap has happened recently - just really bothered me. Definitely need to stop worrying about things out of my control..not my business anymore. I looked over some past LJ entries..like years ago, and I should have seen this one coming too. I mean..he couldn't even tell the truth..all of the stuff he said was all BS to keep me just barely hanging on. Not anymore - I have joined the ranks of "girls who don't want anything to do with T." Still - it makes me feel bad - like I wasted a lot of time hoping for something that I should have known wasn't going to work out. Whatever. He wouldn't even tell his ex gf he was dating me - I should have known. I need someone who is proud to be with me, and is honest. I won't say anymore though.
..Work has been SOOO slow - its only busy on nights i'm dumb "support staff" - aka a busser. I love the Hearthstone and the people I work with, but come on - I need money!! I hardly ever get called to sub anymore either, I dunno whats going on with that, but Wednesday I'm going to the Teacher Recruitment Fair at Calvin College - So Wednesday is something to look forward to, amongst other reasons :) I just have to focus on getting a job and only spending time with people who actually are worth my time and enjoy spending time with me. I really miss Mt. Pleasant..and my friends there, its really hard here.
..I've been on a huge Tom Petty kick lately, its all I ever listen to, I love it. I really want his 6 CD set - "Playback" - it looks amazing. So yeah..thats my life..I'm really stressed out again, I'm down to like 4 ativan, I have no health insurance, and I'd have to call my Dr. and see if he would let me get refills without coming into see him - the refill alone is like $60 :( So far - I hate being a college graduate. I'm not happy..I mean in the grand scheme of things I'm not happy - not just about that. Oh well..I'm just going to try to do my best to be the best person I possibly can..and hope everything works out how its supposed to. I need a hug..
P.S. The song "It'll All Work Out" by Tom Petty is one of the saddest songs I've ever heard..
+Whatever you're looking for+
+Don't come around here no more+
+I've given up. Stop. You tangle my emotions+
+Honey please, admit its over!+
( Pix )</lj-cut |
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[Mar. 6th, 2006|11:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Weezer - Perfect Situation | ] |
..I need a project..or an assignment..seriously - without any sort of..intellectual sustenance i feel like a worthless retard - half the time i call people and can't remember why i called them! I'm a college graduate and I'm STILL a waitress - Someone help me out..seriously..it'd be nice if it paid something too - but thats just me being optimistic ;) Someone give me something to do - preferably with a deadline.
-- I would also clean someone's house for money too -- |
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| I have one thing to say... |
[Dec. 30th, 2005|02:56 pm] |
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| |  pissed off | ] |
..There are NO decent guys ANYWHERE and almost every single one I know has proved this fact to be true in the last month. Good lord..you all need to grow up. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2005|10:23 am] |
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| | bored | ] |
I want to go somewhere warm so badly..just get in the car and drive until its warm...but doing it as cheaply as possible...who's with me? eh? I'd even fly if the flight was cheap! I'm not a huge fan of the winter... |
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[Dec. 19th, 2005|03:01 pm] |
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| |  amused | ] |
..So my party went well, it was good to see everyone, but it was also nice to just lay on my bed and watch tv when everyone was gone..graduating is exhausting ;) I went to the Community Ed. building today to talk to the after school program director and she told me that for the first week i would be considered a "substitute" for the teacher-tutor program which is $8 and then by law they have to post the position internally for 10 days, after that it becomes mine and I'll make $15 an hour!! Yess!! Its only like 15 hours a week, but I don't ever have to be there until 4:30pm - soo I can sub during the day too! So if i subbed 3 days a week and worked 15 hours at the ASP I'd be making like $360 a week after taxes which is pretty decent considering its not a full time job or anything :) So i can handle that! I need to get my room cleaned up and run on the treadmill for a bit before I get in the shower etc..Things are definitely looking up despite the fact I don't have a steady teaching job...hopefully they stay going well..I think with effort, they can :) |
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| Things.. |
[Dec. 17th, 2005|09:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nervous | ] |
* I graduate today, at 4:30pm..I'm nervous
* I went to a Muskegon Fury game last night, the Fury lost, but I still had a great time
* I saw J. at the Fury game last night..weirdness..he just stared at me!
* Some little kid was trying to hit on me at the fury game last night..haha..not really but he did talk to me about some weird stuff..
* I need to figure out something small to get the 1st graders for christmas
* I have a job with the after school program starting right after christmas break!
* I'm getting rid of any extra profile stuff online..myspace.com etc..just so no one thinks i've disappeared..just not interested. I'm trying to think of what else i might have up where though..there are so many dumb websites..hotornot.com, espinthebottle.com, why not just put iamaskanklookingforotherskanks.com ? heh..anyways..they're all gone. I'm also cutting down on buddies on my buddy list...I just went from 60 something to 31.. :)
* I should be cleaning my room, but I don't feel like it..
* I'm happy.. :)
...I believe that is all... |
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| Tell me there's some hope for me, I don't want to be lonely for the rest of my days on the earth.. |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|12:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | thoughtful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Weezer - Perfect Situation | ] |
..I took a little drive today, to think about some stuff. I went up to Silver Lake, its funny how I've only been up there maybe 3 times, but I remember exactly where everything was and what it looked like. That town really dies during the winter though..almost everything was closed. It was nice to just think, no radio, just driving. I did get a couple of phone calls, but they were welcome ones. I actually felt like ME today, for the past like..I don't know..its been a long time, I've felt like something was off, today I just decided to take a drive and think about what exactly it was that was making me feel more..down..I suppose than normal. I think i figured it out..for the most part..now I just need to do something about it.
..On another note, yesterday was my last day of student teaching and my last seminar. Lynne liked my portfolio, and gave me a really great letter of reccomendation, so did Mrs. Schwingler. About 4 of the little girls started crying as I was leaving yesterday..I almost started crying too :( A few of the kids have given me christmas presents - Rachel gave me a really cute bird ornament, William gave me really pretty polished stones that had a word on each, "Teach" "Patience", and "Laugh", and the cutest card ever, and then Brandon gave me an 18k gold and Sterling Silver necklace..its reallllly pretty, wayyy too much for someone to give me, but its pretty. My kids love me - what can I say? :) As of Saturday, I will be a graduate of Central Michigan University!!
IF YOU ARE READING THIS, THEN YOU ARE INVITED TO MY SMALL GRAD PARTY ON SUNDAY THE 18TH!!! BETWEEN 1pm and 3pm!! Just post a comment, send an email (cmukeri@hotmail.com) or give my cell phone a call if you'd like to come. We're just having cookies/candies/chex mix..stuff like that, nothing big, you don't need to bring a gift unless you really want to, but if you want to come please do!
..I am also in the "2nd step" of Resume reviewing for 5 open positions in Muskegon Public Schools, thanks to someone :) I would LOVE to get the 3rd grade job - there are three kintergarten positions, a 1st grade, and a 3rd grade. They start at $35,838 a year! So that would be nice, if I got one of those positions, I would live here for a bit, and then probably look into an apartment at the Catalina Shores complex near the muskegon mall or possibly "The Reserve" in Norton Shores! It'd be nice to stick around here and have a job. Anyways, I should go....clean my room and I have presents to wrap (real ones)
Though I can't satisfy
all the needs she has,
and so she starts to wander,
can you blame her?
Tell me theres a logic out there,
leading me to better prepare,
for the day that something really special might come
<3 Weezer |
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